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Strong at the Broken Places

By Nicole Fuscia | Posted Under Book Reviews | Comments (31)



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“That’s what I need to tell you: that I knew the loving world was out there all the time.” - Patrick Ireland, Columbine shooting survivor and Class of 2000 valedictorian

I don’t remember where I was on April 20th, 1999.

Since the minute I picked up this book, I’ve tried. I can tell you exactly when I realized that something was very wrong on September 11th, 2001. I can recall with perfect clarity watching the horror unfold in Oklahoma City as a high school junior. I just can’t remember what I was doing while the world stopped making sense at Columbine High School. I do have memories of seeing the photos and hearing the accounts and theories in the days afterward, so I was hooked when I saw Dave Cullen’s book perched on the shelf at Barnes and Noble. It seemed to be a serious, thoughtful look at an event that rocked America, free of showmanship and sensationalism, and the blurb promised to offer answers to questions that surrounded the attack and subsequent investigation for years. Hot damn, did it deliver. Cullen’s examination is insightful, probing, focused, and sensitive without shying away from the bald facts of that day. I was so blown away by the intensity and sheer amount of information that I needed to read it again before I could begin to write about it.

What do you remember? So much came from that day, a jumble of footage and conjecture: the “Trench Coat Mafia;” the theory of the shootings as retaliation for bullying; the Cassie Bernall “She said ‘Yes’” story; the images of teenagers fleeing in terror; the outrage over lax gun laws; the NRA’s insistence upon holding its annual meeting in Denver that year … it was a barrage, and Cullen covers it all while managing to streamline and structure it, patiently setting the pieces into place, debunking the myths and finally answering the ultimate question - “Why did it happen?” The who, what, when, where and how were covered years ago, but Cullen covers them again in order to give the why perspective. It’s not for the faint of heart; the destruction and carnage are described frankly and in detail. Cullen manages to somehow balance the facts with the people, which is downright daunting - not only does he cover the killers, Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold, but also the victims, both living and dead, their families, the student population, the staff, the media, and the investigative teams. There is no way that I can do justice to it in a simple review, but I will try to give you the bare bones and hope that you’ll be inspired to read it for yourself.

Harris and Klebold were not outcasts, bullying victims, gang members, Goths, or anti-Semites. They worked in a pizza joint and had a circle of friends with whom they partied and went bowling; Klebold went to the prom four nights before the massacre. They came from intact, stable families and were extremely bright. No one “snapped;” the attack was meticulously planned for months. They came together in a perfect storm - shy, depressed, introverted Klebold and charming, quick-witted, psychopathic Harris. The pair worked their way from petty vandalism to theft (both were arrested on a felony charge for breaking into a van and stealing electronics a little over a year before the attack) and eventually to murder. Klebold didn’t want to live in the world anymore; Harris didn’t think the world was worthy of living. Harris’ fascination with the Nazis didn’t stem from a belief in white supremacy. He was obsessed with the idea of slaughtering “human animals.” Klebold yearned so hard for love that he hated himself and allowed that hate to leach out and spill over into destruction. He knew that he wasn’t going to make it out alive; he was too chicken to commit suicide alone so he decided to take others out with him when he went. Worse, there were signs for months. Harris had a website that he used to wax rhapsodic about murder and threaten a former friend and both killers leaked information about the bombs and guns to pals. They were arrested on felony charges. Harris was caught by his father with a pipe bomb. They wrote essays and stories for school that are clear warnings, in retrospect. They went so far as to write about their plans in detail in each others’ yearbooks less than a year before the spree. They both kept journals and together recorded the “Basement Tapes” to leave an explanation for the world. Harris and Klebold never planned on a simple shooting; they had several large bombs intended to take out a main part of the school along with hundreds of students and staff, after which they would pick off fleeing survivors with firearms before being taken out by police. Then each of their cars, rigged with time bombs, would explode in the perimeter, killing media and first responders. This was death as performance art. They were playing to an audience. (It was only by sheer luck and some level of ineptitude that the large bombs failed to detonate.)

Cullen takes in all of this information and lays it out, piece by piece, recreating the web that the killers spun and placing it in context. He uses a taut combination of flashbacks that lead up to that day and real-time scenes that progress forward through the investigation and the aftermath. In the in-between places, he follows the recovery of the injured, including Patrick Ireland, “the boy in the window,” who launched his half-paralyzed body to safety out the library window; the parents of the murdered students; the family of Dave Sanders, the teacher who lost his life attempting to get others to safety; and the principal, Frank DeAngelis, who assumed so much guilt and grief and devoted everything in him to getting “his kids” through the ordeal. Cullen covers the “Jesus frenzy” that exploded in the Evangelical community and examines the media manipulation of the tragedy as he derides the coverups fabricated by a significant portion of the investigative team. He champions the students who took back their school and refused to be defined by one heartbreaking act of devastation, but instead grew stronger for having been broken. It’s massive and beautiful. It’s pitch-perfect. Read it. Please.

Nicole Fuscia is a book critic for Pajiba. She lives in Philadelphia.









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Comments

Nice review, Mizz Lady. I'll be reading it soon.

Posted by: Skitz at May 28, 2009 11:42 AM

Great review. I'll read it for sure.

I was sitting in my high school class when I heard about it. We watched it on TV.

Posted by: Rachel at May 28, 2009 11:59 AM

Well done Nicole. I'll be sure to give it a thorough read.

Posted by: admin at May 28, 2009 12:04 PM

Great review. I don't think I'm comfortable reading the book.

I remember where I was where Columbine happened. I was locked up in the principal's office being given the third degree because some rich punks decided to scream at the principal "Robert has a gun and he said he's going to shoot us all," after they found out about the then-on-going school shooting. One of my friends got suspended for the same bullshit. It turned into a witch hunt targetted at unpopular kids. Isn't that nice?

Yeah, about that book: I think I know enough about Columbine. I've read other reviews that seem to indicate that, as well-written as this book is, there isn't much new information in it; other books have the topic covered well.

Posted by: Robert at May 28, 2009 12:07 PM

I was sitting in a 7th grade class room in a Catholic school. I don't think I actually found out about the shootings until I got home that afternoon. I cried for them. I cried for the victims and I cried for the killers. None of it made sense and all of it was tragic. Seems like this book bears out my initial reaction.

Posted by: Genny (also Rusty) at May 28, 2009 12:16 PM

Great review - I'll be reading this one for sure.

Posted by: Jilly at May 28, 2009 12:19 PM

So weird... just last night I chose this as a topic for my Media & Culture class paper, covering the various media outlets' handling of the situation. Great timing, thanks for that.

I think I didn't really hear much about it during the day; I was at work, and I saw it on the news when I got home (unlike 9/11). I remember being furious about all the blame being cast around, particularly towards music (though I seem to also recall video games getting dragged into the mix) and specifically Marilyn Manson, and that will be the focus of my paper. Sometimes a sociopath is just a sociopath.

Anyway, this sounds terrific. Nicely written, Nicolita.

Posted by: Anna von Beaverplatz at May 28, 2009 12:25 PM

I remember clearly. My mom had picked me up from work and we listened to the radio broadcast. My parents completely freaked out, because I was in 8th grade and going to high school the next year.

I am definitely going to add this to my reading list.

Posted by: Bonnie at May 28, 2009 1:07 PM

I was in math class, I was 15 or 16, and I was joking about it being 4/20 with some friends when a teacher came in told everyone. I don't recall what happened after that.

Posted by: annoyingmouse at May 28, 2009 1:20 PM

I was a senior in high school when it happened, and the day being 420 a few of us had taken the day off and weren't exactly watching the news. I didn't find out about it until the next day when everybody seemed mad at me and my friends, and the story started to unfold. It was a really weird last few weeks of high school.

Posted by: Barabajagalla at May 28, 2009 2:29 PM

It was two days before my sixteenth birthday. I was taking a make-up test during my lunch break at my Catholic high school in Denver. Our principal announced over the intercom that something had happened at a school 20 minutes away and that we were on lockdown for the rest of the day because it wasn't clear what was going on. The news reports were crazy and varied greatly, and I guess because of the presence of all of the bombs, some of the earliest reported that it was the work of terrorists from Kosovo.

Watching the news that first night was especially horrific because no one knew what happened, and the bombs made it too dangerous for rescue workers to rush in, and so it was expected to be weeks before all bodies were discovered or identified, (since it was a school, they knew who the likely were, though) and I remember thinking about how terrible it would be to be wounded and bleeding out waiting for the bombs units to clear the area so someone could save you.

The subsequent exploitation and media/fame frenzy certainly helped my distrust of, and general disdain for "news" outlets. It gave me a special hate for Katie Couric and the Today Show.

Posted by: Christina at May 28, 2009 3:26 PM

Was a sophomore at a Catholic prep school in Massachusetts. Our history class voted to send letters of condolences to the kids at the school, and the vice principal (a nun who is still at the school today) said it was "inappropriate" and that "teenagers at this school do not need to be talking on suicide and murder."
Our history teacher who hated this woman as we all did came back to our class, looked at us and asked "Just out of curiosity, how many of you have thought of killing yourselves or know someone who has thought about killing themselves?" Every single kid in the class raised their hand.
That's pretty much when I started to tune out anything the Catholic Church said.

Posted by: scorzis at May 28, 2009 3:59 PM

I was a Freshman in college; we watched the footage together in the common room. What a horrifying day.

Sounds like a difficult read Nicole, so I'm not sure I'll get around to it. Great review!

Posted by: Julie at May 28, 2009 4:36 PM

I've been meaning to read this since Chez recommended it. Now it feels even more imperative.

Posted by: t at May 28, 2009 4:59 PM

News of the event began flooding into our radio station's newsroom just before I was scheduled to go on the air. It was my duty to give a brief synopsis of what was happening before beginning my regular radio show but I was so stunned and heartsick that I told the audience "I'm sorry but I just can't talk today. This is just too much". Music and commercials played after that.
I have been trying to make some actual sense of what happened that day ever since. Thank you for the review, Nicole. Perhaps by reading this I will, at last be able to do that.

Posted by: Spender at May 28, 2009 6:20 PM

Actually, a much better book is Columbine: A True Crime Story by Jeff Kass. Those who are have firsthand knowledge of the shootings have backed Kass' book and cite a number of errors in Cullen's book.

http://www.jeffkassauthor.com/index.html

Posted by: nc at May 28, 2009 7:02 PM

after my hotline shift I'm going to the Borders across the street to check this out, thank you.

Posted by: Max at May 28, 2009 7:05 PM

I walked into my freshman health class and the teacher had it on the TV. We watched a few minutes of the coverage, then the teacher turned it off and taught class like nothing had happened. We were all silent the rest of class.

Posted by: Megan at May 28, 2009 8:02 PM

When I was in my final year of my undergrad at uni, a student shot up his honours class. I never knew him, never met his victims, and a bunch of people with balls made of fucking titanium stopped him quickly enough that only two people died and five were injured. I hate that I just said 'only'. Bet that means nothing to the victims, but that 'only' is like a bandaid over a stab wound. It does nothing, but it's a way to hold the pieces together.
I was at uni when it happened, outside the cafeteria, with a friend, keeping him company while he had a smoke. People were running past, still holding coffee cups, just hurtling past us, and we fucking laughed at them. We made jokes about how late they must be to forget they were holding a cup of hot liquid, we didn't know, and the idea that somebody was doing something like that, it just never enters your head. My friend finished his cig, we walked back to one of the main cafeteria, where we'd left our bags and our friends, and one of the staff members was locking the door. We said something, can't remember what, but I remember her face, how she grabbed our arms and dragged us inside, and said 'Somebody's got a gun, and they're shooting people, we have to stay in here until it's safe'. We were locked in a cafeteria with floor to fucking ceiling windows along the whole wall, with fifty or sixty other people.
I know it sounds like a complete wank, but I'll never be able to properly explain what that was like. It was like the room was filled with a scent your brain couldn't recognise, but the monkey deep inside sure fucking knew it, and was getting ready to take the controls. We were all on our phones, calling family, friends, I tried to call my mum first, in case she heard on the radio or something, and I knew she'd panic. I resorted to a message in the end, just hitting 'send' over and over, until it got through. We sat at the table, a group of us, trying to work out where other friends were, did they have a class near that building, had anybody gotten through to them? The mobile phone towers had overloaded, everybody making calls, all of us staring out those huge fucking windows, looking for someone with a gun.
The doors were unlocked eventually. Nobody knew what to say, or what to think. We kept asking, how many hurt, any dead?
The original suggestion was seven dead. I heard it in the car, on my way home. I screamed or sobbed, don't know what you'd call the noise I made. I think the monkey inside made it. Then I cried. It's been nearly seven years, and I still cry when I think about it.
The person who did was my age at the time. He'd been doing honours, and it was suggested that he'd just cracked under the pressure. As for his guns, he'd done everything right. They were all registered, and bought from a legitimate retailer. He was part of a shooting club. He kept them in a locked safe. I guess it's a good thing he didn't have any fully automatic weapons, they'd stopped him when he went to reload. One of the people who did had been shot himself. Like I said, balls of titanium.

I'm sorry for the hijack, and for how long this post is. I guess it's just that I still don't understand. It's a memory, just images and emotion, and I can't put in context. I might force myself to read this book. Maybe there'll be something in there that will help.

Posted by: ScienceGeek at May 28, 2009 11:33 PM

I was a senior in high school, the same age as Klebold and Harris. A few days after the shooting, my English teacher asked the class if we thought anything like that could ever happen here. One of the brainless twits in the room said something to the effect of "Of course not, we're all super close!" And I said, basically, "Oh, yes it could. You've all made my life hell since the fifth grade, and it's a good thing my parents don't own guns"

And of course, there was silence. I'm lucky I didn't get expelled.

What I wish I could say to those boys, and this has been on my mind a LOT this year, is that life does get better after high school. I got to grow up and move past all that nonsense. These kids, the shooters and their victims, never did.

Posted by: kate the great at May 29, 2009 6:03 AM

kate the great: But your sentiment gets, I think, at the heart of the problem. A kid shot up his school near where I live in March (for more, google Winnenden), and now an investigation has 'proven' that he didn't snap under bullying because he wasn't bullied "more than most". This idea that a certain level of bullying is just acceptable, just what kids do, just normal is as revolting to me as every death in every school shooting.

Posted by: muzz at May 29, 2009 8:43 AM

Posted by: ScienceGeek at May 28, 2009 11:33 PM

Wow, dude. Just wow. You just made me cry at work a little. I cannot even begin to imagine how I would react, or feel, in that situation. I don't even know what to say... My senior year of high school, we had bomb threats almost continuously for several months. But we were never scared, because it wasn't real. It was just kids being stupid. But that was in 1987-88, before we knew it was possible for this to happen. There were those of us that were bullied, that had very few friends, that were outcast, and we talked a good game about what we'd do to those other kids, but it was just talk. I mean, it was really just talk. That, I think, was what shocked me the most about Columbine, was the simple fact that it wasn't just talk anymore.

Have you ever considered any kind of therapy for it? It might not be for you, but it's worth a try. It might even help.

Posted by: Anna von Beaverplatz at May 29, 2009 9:04 AM

Nicole - a really fabulous and well-written review. I have heard good things about this book on Salon and NPR and I'm glad you agree.

Posted by: tamatha at May 29, 2009 10:17 AM

I was nursing my 3 month old baby boy. I remember looking at my own son, wondering what went wrong with those 2 kids at Columbine, those kids that were once little babies themselves. And wondering if I had the ability to stop it from happening to my own child.

Posted by: Janey at May 29, 2009 11:14 AM

You are still being lied to. Big time. If you want to find out what really happened at Columbine I suggest you read what the eyewitnesses had to say:

http://www.whatreallyhappened.com/columbineeight.php

Posted by: starviego at May 29, 2009 1:32 PM

Hey AvB, you're right that we never think it could happen. Even when it was happening, lots of people were saying it had to be some fuckwit's idea of a joke, and we were all thinking it. I mean, I live in Australia, we've got some of the tightest gun laws on the planet. Criminals and cops, they're the only ones who shoot people, not some guy you could have passed in the Student Union building.
If you'd mentioned therapy before yesterday, I'd have said I didn't need it. I honestly don't even think about it that much. But that post just poured out of me, and I went off and sobbed afterwards. So yeah, therapy might be a good thing, even if I'll feel a bit stupid, because I think it's fucked me a bit more than I realised. I'm pretty embarrassed that I unloaded like that on everybody. Sorry, guys.

Posted by: ScienceGeek at May 29, 2009 10:37 PM

sciencegeek, never be sorry for the truth. that stuff makes you stronger.

And I'd say do go and talk...it helps with traumatic experiences more than you'd think. I'd be insane right now over a bad one if I had tried to tough it out.

Posted by: replica at May 30, 2009 5:47 AM

Thanks for that great review of my book (Columbine). There's more info at the link, if you're interested.

And these are wonderful comments. It's amazing how deeply the tragedy struck so many people. It sure did a number on me.

Posted by: Dave Cullen at May 30, 2009 12:23 PM

scorvis, that nun was an idiot and doesn't speak for the rest of the Church. I'm sorry your school didn't help you kids deal with the harsh realities of life.

Great review; I'll have to check out the book. I was in 8th grade and found out in the morning from our substitute teacher. I definitely wondered what would happen to me in that situation. Would I survive? Would be one of those kids who said "Yes"?

Posted by: Empress of All the Russias at May 31, 2009 2:59 AM

Those who are familiar with Columbine say there are a number of inaccuracies in Cullen's book - the victim families even got him kicked off Oprah. Cullen actually promotes a number of new myths. Read Eric and Dylan's diaries. They sure sound like outcasts to me. It's absurd to believe that Eric and Dylan were just two normal teens.

Posted by: David Chu at June 1, 2009 7:52 PM

I just saw David Chu's post.

I know of just one person close to Columbine claiming inaccuracies--Randy Brown--who is arguing with my conclusions, not my facts. The vast majority have been extremely supportive. Many of the people most knowledgeable about the case are quoted extensively in the book, and support it.

And no one got me "kicked off Oprah." I spent nearly a month working with the Harpo producers, who invested that time, because they believed very strongly in the book. They decided to focus the show primarily on the killers--which is about half of my book. In the end, Oprah explained publicly on both her Twitter and Facebook pages that she felt the timing was bad: airing a show about the killers on the tenth anniversary. Her statements are a matter of public record.

If you have specific charges of inaccuracies, please state them.

Posted by: Dave Cullen at June 9, 2009 12:41 PM