Today was a little bit of a rough day for me. I awoke with intense anxiety due to it being Election Day, as that has always been something that stresses me out ever since I could remember. Although it only encompassed the school levy (very important) and some school board seats (also very important), the idea of leaving the house to vote had me feeling heavy and panicked.
I have PTSD, OCD, and panic and anxiety disorder, but I’ve been able to get things under quite a bit of control over the last two years after losing a job sent me into a downward spiral. Of course, medication and therapy don’t magically solve everything and nothing can ever completely cure the misfiring synapses in a brain that causes it to suffer these mental illnesses. Still, some days you have to realize that things will be tough in ways that may not bother other people and you can choose to fake your way through or stay home (both valid responses).
Today I decided to fake it until I made it, creating a list in my head to break down my day into steps. Pretending I’m the type of OCD that gets stuff done -instead of one that binges all of the Saw movies for some reason before gorging myself on any mention of the movies immediately after- got my day going for a while. Pretending you can do something will sometimes allow you to be the person that can handle tough situations or make it through a rough day.
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